I used to think people with routines in their lives are those who are too afraid to deal with everyday surprises or those who aren't on spur of the moment, people who abide to their schedule are just lack in spontaneity and too rigid to live their lives. These people, who live their live their live where everything is outlined and planned, where everything is pretty much predictable and tedious. Routine negates fun, says I. But guess what, life is unpredictable.
Whilst I often considered me-self as a carefree lass with a taste of randomness (well...). I often changed my mind (much to people's chagrin), I did my chores whenever I felt like, never had a study plan, people often found me in different places, I didn't have any favourites (food, drinks, movies and such), and I kinda went with the flow.
That was why I hated baking. I love cooking because you can still mess up with the recipe and the ingredients and still the results can be marvelous. But with baking, you gotta stick to the exact techniques and ingredients if you wish to have a sublime result.
But that was the younger version of me. The immature and silly me. As days passed by, I realized I do need routines. I do need to stick by rules (and recipe). My life has gone pretty hectic for the past few months (years?) and the absolute way to live again is with routines. My life is not even close to what I thought it would be like a year ago. I kinda need plans for everything and sometimes it’s scary to let go of plans because then it is like you are inviting all kinds of uncertainty into your life. I think I'm a bit more responsible, thoughtful and maybe a bit boring nowadays.
Routines actually renders us a sense of familiarity and structure, in other words, everything you do will eventually make sense. You have ownership, organization and orders in everything you do. It is like you are slowly being surged to the proper direction. Just like baking! You stick with the ingredients and techniques, and then you wait for the dough to rise in the oven and the house becomes saturated with the scents of butter and flour and chocolate; pulling the pans out of the oven and finding the dough transformed into something golden and perfect.
But still, life doesn’t always work out the way you plan it. You must be able to go with the flow regardless of whether you have a plan or not. I still do enjoy being in the moment rather than worry about happens tomorrow or in the future. That why I haven't still gotten a job!
