Oh Barney..

Marshall: Jelly beans, fluffernutter, gummi bears, ginger snaps- this is a grocery list.
Robin: For who, a witch building a house in the forest?
Marshall: Sugar helps me study.
Barney: This is the kind of shopping a ten-year-old does when he's alone for the weekend.
Lily: Who leaves a 10 year old alone for the weekend?
Barney: And your mom was perfect...!

Hehehe, classic !

How ?

By allowing myself to wallow in my very own thoughts, somehow I am just digging a deeper hole for myself. To reach the sweet story that was once imagined to be older than the sea, seems so far-fetched and surreal yet so desired by the heart, so much. How do I find an exit from this so-called black and white world of mine?

Gomenasai

There are so many things bothering me for the moment. I feel so freaking angry with myself that I just feel like punching people so hard that it reverberates back to their past and shatters their wee little skulls. At the same time, I wish to cry. But the tears somewhat evaporate into the thin air, creating what it is called, the sadness vapour. And I feel like running away, as far and as fast as I can. Because I have seemed to hurt people around me so much. Forgive me if I ever hurt your feelings. Forgive me if my presence is not welcomed. And to you, forgive me if I'm bothering you with my friendship.

Convoy Saga

Semalam konvoi raya ramai-ramai dengan kawan-kawan sekolah menengah. 6 rumah, 5 kereta, dari zohor sampai isyak. Mengeletar tangan drive malam-malam. Haha. Bila sampai rumah pertama, dapat berita. Kawan aku nak kahwin tahun depan; membuatkan aku speechless kejap.


Bila ada kawan dah nak kahwin, membawa beberapa significant.


Satu, bila aku tengok kawan aku, aku rasa dia tetap sama. Sama macam mana first time aku jumpa dia masa sekolah dahulu. Tapi bila fikirkan balik, diperhatikan balik, jari bilang tahun, oh, dia dah dewasa. Dah lama dewasa cuma aku baru perasan. Dah nak kahwin. Dah nak masuk phase baru. Tiba-tiba rasa emotional sekejap. Emo sebab kawan aku dah dewasa, menunjukkan kita semua pun dah dewasa, cuma tak sedar, menunjukkan zaman riang remaja dah lama berlalu, tapi rasa macam baru semalam 16 Dis 2009. Memories flooded in. All those sweet sweet memories. Dan menunjukkan masa kita dekat dunia makin sekejap. Next time kita kumpul ramai-ramai, maybe lagi ramai yang dah ada pasangan. Next time nya lagi, masing-masing dukung anak, pimpin anak. Next time nya lagi lagi, semua dah start beruban. Next time nya lagi lagi dan lagi, maybe tak semua berkesempatan untuk berkumpul lagi. Owh sedih.


Dua, membuatkan aku terfikir sepanjang malam, bila turn aku ?! Bila turn aku nak rasa cincin kat jari ? Excited nak tahu macam mana diorang berkenalan, macam mana si lelaki propose, persediaan nak kahwin, debaran sebagai tunang orang etcetera etcetera. Tipulah kalau aku kata aku tak pernah fikir pasal hal ni. Rasa nak kahwin memang ada, cuma calon pula yang tak ada. Umur sekarang dah boleh start mencari tapi aku tak tahu nak start cari kat mana. Kawan biar seribu, kasih biar satu. Biarlah Allah yang datangkan. Biarlah aku fokus dengan apa yang aku ada sekarang. Biarlah aku bersedia sepenuhnya.


Tiga, cerita Transformer semalam memang super cool. Tengok banyak kali pun aku tetap rasa cerita Transformers sangat breathtaking. Hehe, tak ada kene-mengene.


Alright then, that's all for the time being. :)

Bundles of Joy

Jumaat Terakhir Ramadhan

One of the things that I love about Syawal is the ambiance of excitement to welcome Syawal, like in every family, the balik kampung trend. The blooming eagerness to meet the grand folks and fellow kindred that never seem to wither regardless of the long hour of journey. 5 hours to be exact. All the way from Sungai Buloh to my humble hometown, Kedah.

Selamat tinggal Ramadhan. Semoga ada jodoh untuk berjumpa tahun depan.
Salam Aidillfitri :)

Trip the Light Fantastic

I have long forgiven you, despite of all what had happened. Our short tale was a history. A long gone lonesome of history. A history of  wish I do not intend to remember. Time had taken care of it and healed the silent wound. I wish you could walk away like you did, before I fall again. I wish this is the final curtain, the end of the play because I am too darn tired to dance this dance again. 

Sometimes, when people grow, they grow apart. Let's put an end to this. Dengan lafaz Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, semoga cerita ini sampai disini sahaja.

The Sweetness of Iman

Things Like This

Weird things you do when you're alone?
Secreto.

How have you changed in the past two years?

Perhaps the way I dress...and think.

What kind of person attracts you?

The kind of guy who wears glasses.

What do you wear to bed?
Pyjamas.

The person you like and why you like them.
I call him Mr Ice Cream because he likes ice creams :)

Your opinion on cheating on people
Well, it depends on the situation actually and it isn't necessarily black and white.

Something you're currently worrying about.
You want my honest answer? It's my weight. Muahaha.

Your last kiss.
I kissed my puffy pillow tenderly last night.

Your current relationship,if single discuss how single life is.
Well, single life rocks actually. You have more time to yourself and you are taking care of your heart only.

A date you would love to go on.
A date with my husband would be nice.

The best thing happen to you this week.
It's the final week of this semester. Which means I'm going home !

3 Things you are proud of about your personality.
I don't easily get mad although things around me tend to drive me crazy.
I don't always procrastinate.
I am an optimist.

Things that make you scared.
I'm scared to fail. And I'm scared of height.

Something that never fails to make you feel better.
Reading the Holy Book of Al-Quran.

Something you can't seem to get over with.
My past. I wish I can turn back the time.

Your dreams.
I just want to lead a happy, healthy, blessed , adventurous and exciting life with my loved ones.

So That's It

So that's it. I had my only exam for this short semester today and I had my last AutoCad 2D class last Tuesday. 7 weeks of class, two subjects, and a pair of shoes.  Conclusion, I have finished my first year as an architecture student, batch XIV. Another great year has passed, gone in a blink of an eye and we are a little bit older and wiser. It's the end of my reign as a junior. Next stop, the sophomore year !

Allahuakbar

Allah tak datangkan jodoh kita lagi sebab itu tandanya kita masih belum bersedia untuk memikul tanggungjawab sebagai seorang suami, isteri atau sebagai ibu bapa.

Allahuakbar.

Gotta Get Though This!

So there I was, alone again in my room, attempting to produce the best composition, while amateurishly trying to figure out the tools. Never thought Photoshop could be quite complicated. My back started to ache. My head started reeling. I've been staring at the screen for almost 5 hours and I couldn't seem to find any appropriate landscape for my drawings. I could feel the cool breeze seeping right into my bones. It was a cold night, and I swear the moon was tremendously lovely. Then, the ideas started to flood in. I could feel the adrenaline rush.


I have three more days to finish this. Three long days and then, I'm goin' home, I'm goin' home.

Wordless Wednesday