HomeSick

For those who managed to stand still without any doubt of collapsing, a big applause to yah. I respect you. Because I, somehow, has started to display signs of breakdown and is waiting for a matter of time to tumble.  To regain my firm position will take some time, some miracles, some pushes. To wait for it to end, will be a dreary moment. To count the days, will be unbearable, as eagerness seeps right through this soul. But to hope for it to end, will be almost a vain because I truly am aware the role that I've been given for a long period and that I must prevail no matter what.

Sigh.

Maaf. Aku agak homesick.

Architorture

Sebagai budak architecture, kehidupan kami sangat tunggang-lagang dan kelam-kabut. Kenapa? Sebab satu, rutin tidur kami agak berberza dengan course lain. Kami selalu buat kerja sampai subuh dan kalau 3 hari tak tidur, ah normal. Lepas tu siang kami tidur sampai rasa nak  bangun. Sebab itu budak architecture, atau dalam kes kami, budak KAED sering digelar hantu malam, kelawar, atau zombie. Tak pun panda, sebab few days before the submission date, tidur adalah satu nikmat yang tak dapat dirasai, mata kami dah start ada lingkaran hitam. Panda. Comel kan kami?



Dua, rutin makan. Nescafe has always been our best drug. Kajian menunjukkan penjualan nescafe sangat tinggi ketika nak dekat submission day. Tak pun maggi. Kerana cost dalam architecture agak tinggi sebab nak kena beli bahan untuk project. Nak beli kertas pun bukan kertas yang biasa-biasa. contoh watercolor paper yang berharga lebih kurang RM4 dan bukan satu kena beli, tetapi adalah dalam 5 - 6 helai. Itupun kalau tak ada mistakes dalam drawings. or kena redo. So, kami terpaksa ikat perut dan maggi adalah solusi untuk mengenyangkan perut yang terbaik. Dan kadang-kadang tak sempat nak beli makanan. Dua hari tak makan, normal tu. Dan juga tiada istilah breakfast, lunch or dinner dalam hidup kami. Bila lapar, kami makan. Sama ada anda jadi semakin kurus atau sebaliknya. Hmmm...



Tiga, rutin pemakaian. Awal-awal semester comel, akhir-akhir semester comot. Awal semester semangat gosok baju sebelum pergi kelas. Semangat pakai baju kaler-kaler, tudung belit-belit. Dah dekat final, pakai jubah je memanjang, tudung sarung or tudung kaler hitam putih je. Tak pun selendang. Oh, aku tak pandai pakai selendang. nanti tercekik. Aku pakai tudung bawal biasa je. Heh.



And lastly, kami banyak ketinggalan. Movie apa yang hot sekarang? Geleng kepala. Bila exactly Awal dengan Scha kawin? Geleng kepala. Apa program yang sedang berlaku kat center masjid? Geleng kepala jua. Birthday roommate sendiri pun tak ingat. Sebab kami indulgekan hari kami dengan drawing drawing dan drawing, dan model. Social life? Orang mana lah kenal aku. Macam mana nak kawin ni...



Anyhoo, I must say, this field is quite tough and challenging. You don't sit back and relax and expecting things to go your way. It'll take blood, toil, tears and sweat to stay firm in this field. Especially when you are competing with the most creative people you've ever seen. And there were times where I had my own breakdowns. And there were times where I had my own sweet little victory. It's not easy, but I enjoy creating something for the ummah.

rumah saya :)

Mister Ice Cream

Susah sebenarnya bila kita suka secretly kat seseorang.

Pakaian kita kalau boleh biarlah nampak kemas supaya dia perasan akan kita. Hari-hari kita nak nampak dia. Nampak beg dia pun dah cukup rasa bahagia. Bila kita nampak dia tengah makan kat cafe, secara automatiknya kita pun akan terus beli makanan, cari tempat yang boleh nampak dia, walaupun perut tak terasa nak makan pun. Bila kita tahu dia suka makan aiskrim perisa strawberry, secara automatiknya kita pun akan beli aiskrim perisa strawberry walaupun itu bukan first choice flavor pilihan kita dan color pink tiba-tiba jadi favourite pulak. Bila kita nampak satu hari itu dia pakai baju melayu color teal, secara automatiknya kita pun beli tudung color teal, purse color teal, dan kalau boleh basikal pun color teal. Bila kita tahu dia join satu event ni, kita pun secara automatiknya nak join event tersebut, walaupun tak tahu apa benda event yang kita masuk tu.


Well, maybe bukan kita. Maybe aku sahaja. Oh, apa sudah jadi dengan hidup aku. Aku suka perisa vanilla, kenapa beli aiskrim strawberry. Aku tak suka warna biru, tapi aku beli purse warna biru, dan aku tak suka makan dekat cafe, tiba-tiba aku boleh pulak breakfast dekat cafe. Damn.

Dear mister, what have you done to me? Arghhh. Pergi jauh-jauh ! Saya nak fokus kat benda lain !

Random Thought #3

I haven't read any books lately. Quite busy with the assignments, projects, tests, quizzes and mucho mucho more. Next week will be the prime week as the submission for the final design drawings is on Friday. And then final examination until the 3rd of June. Then, it's holiday baby !

So I'm thinking of going to Pesta Buku this Saturday. I want to buy books, any kind of books because I love books.

People think that I'm an introvert. Well, that's not entirely true. I like to explore the mighty world out there. I like to hang out with my girlfriends all night long. I like to socialize with people. I like to try new things. I like challenges. I like dealing with the unpredictable. But at the end of the day, I just want to read books.

Yeah, I'm sorta a nerd. But I'm pretty happy with who I am. Thank you very much.